Inspiration and Expectation

Before I came to seminary in 2007 I worked in a rather high pressure sales and marketing job.  My job was interesting, but overall was a grind filled with 60-hour workweeks, challenging sales goals and sometimes-difficult customers.   I will admit that I got little satisfaction out of my job, and often it felt like I was being simply drained.

Being motivated to go to work and be productive became an increasing challenge.  There was one morning in the shower I simply did not want to get out of the shower and go to work…at all.  As I was standing in the shower with the water streaming over my head a thought entered into my mind.  And the thought did not feel like my normal thoughts, it was different and new.

With the crush and rush of our lives it is easy, at times, to feel unmotivated, to feel drained by our lives.  It is easy to feel unmotivated and stagnant, or simply bored.  Moving forward with enthusiasm for what lies ahead can seem like an insurmountable challenge.

That morning in the shower the totally random thought that came to me out of the blue was the following:  “God has something in store just for you.  It will be awesome.  Your job is to go and find it.”

I remember laughing as I got out of the shower thinking, “this is some sort of hide-and-go-seek with God…this is crazy.”  Well, I have to admit that the thought did sound rather odd and humorous, it still does to me today.  But I felt compelled to at least see if something awesome would happen to me, or if I would see something amazing that day.

Later that day, and just about every day since then, when I have remembered to look, I have found that indeed God HAS had something amazing in store for me to find.  God has something amazing for you to discover as well.  The secret is keeping your ears, eyes, heart and mind at work to find that special something that was made just for you to see, to experience, to discover, to notice.   And, when you DO hear, see, experience, discover or notice the amazing thing that God has in store for you, you’ll know it.  That wonderful verse in Matthew’s seventh chapter of his gospel, at the seventh verse comes flowing back into my mind, “Ask, and it will be given to you; search, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened for you.”

Go now.  Find what God has in store for you…seek for what God has made especially for you to find today.

Faithfully,

Matthewfirst

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About matthewhanisian

Associate Rector at St. Alban's Episcopal Church, Washington, D.C.
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2 Responses to Inspiration and Expectation

  1. Susan Muncey says:

    Thank you for sharing you story! I will hopefully remember your words of “when I have remembered to look, I have found that indeed God HAS had something amazing in store for me to find. God has something amazing for you to discover as well. The secret is keeping your ears, eyes, heart and mind at work to find that special something that was made just for you to see, to experience, to discover, to notice. ”
    Thank you for your words of wisdom! Susan

  2. Carlyle Gill says:

    Great post, Matthew. I have discovered the presence of God even in the hard things – maybe especially there. Carlyle

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